Im 47, not getting any younger. Just ended a relationship of 16 years due to his cheating. I wear my heart on my sleeves. I have 4 kuds all out of the house. I have 5 beautiful grandkids. They are the air I breath. I have 5 fur babys, dogs to some, who keep me grounded. Im buying a house going on year 5. Trying to keep it but not at the expence of my emotions. Im devastated over my relationship ending. It has tore our whole families lives apart. Im trying to puck up the pieces. He made me feel old, ugly, used, washed up. Ive done nothing but take care of everyone but myself. Im disabled due to a car wreck in 2005. Had more surgeories than I wanted. Live in chron7c pain and fixing to see if I have cancer. I dont want to spend what time I have left on this earth being sad, depressedand and alone. I would like to neet a real man who can take care of me and I will definitly take care of him.looking for a discrete relationship between me and only you. Ive noticed there are a lot of married men on these sites. There is a reason you are on here but if you are going to cheat at least leave your wife first. Im going through this now and all I can say is think of your wife, kids, grandkids and friends. Ask your self if its really worth it and imagine all the pain you are going to give. The mental and emotional and physical effect this is going to have on you all. Like I said im not getting any younger. Id live to meet one honest man out there that will spoil me rotten, pamper me and never hurt or disrespect me. Who c will have my back like ive always had for the people I love. I want to love again laugh again but most of all trust again. itrust no one at the moment. I dont want to be alone for the holidays. My kids are not talking to me because I chose to give thatvworthless piece of shit another chance after I ended up with a bruise and a lot of mental and emotional abuse. I didnt want to see 16 years govto waste. I love my family and will do whatever to protect them and keep them together. They seem to forget that. So I have no one to spendcthe holidays with. They with held my grand kids from me. Would be nice to have a holiday trisk with a staranger. See I it turns out like in the movies. Theycalways have happy endings on christmas movies. Wellmi find my self alonecso lets see if santa will bring me someone special. Ive been a very good girl. Ready for a luttle naughtyness
